I lost my hope to fight in life over and over again. I don't have anything. I am all nothing. I only have is just myself. All I want is just to have a happy life. Maybe happiness and love was really not for me.
I'm just a human too to feel tiredness and now my heart broke into pieces. It's really hard for me to be worthless. I'm weak and worthless.
Anyone can leave me. I don't have friends. No one can ask me “Are you okey?”. Look how unlucky I am. Dreams? No, Maybe my dreams was really not for me. I’ve already heard a lot of words from the other people. I'm so tired to fight. I'm so hopeless. I'm full of shame.
Maybe I deserves to filled and float with a sadness. I always pretend to be happy infront of the other people but deep inside my heart is covered with sadness. Why is it that when I am happy I think the other people feel bad to me? Is it bad to be happy? I don’t wanna feel this way.
Now I dont know how to move forward with an emotional pain , and feeling extremely hopeless about an uncertain future.
Everyone deserves to be happy and to be loved. It's a choice actually. If you want to be happy then choose to be one. If you want to be loved, choose to love yourself first so that love will radiate to others and it will reflect back to you. Happy Sunday! Hope you'll follow me.... :)