there were moments during this that it felt like you were at the edge of having a cry...it made me think about tears and sadness. about how it been so long since i have had a cry. which made me well up, made me feel you were right there in front of me...that i just wanted to hug and have a cry, but then i stopped myself from crying through that weird auto block in my brain that says things like stop being silly or a baby or man up or whatever stupid shit a brain says to you in a moment.
arrggg, damn brain.
the wind, the child swing, the gratefulness tinged with sadness.. it all made for a really amazing, pure, melancholy yet hopeful vlog. i send a big fat cyber hug to you... to me... to any and all. may you get free internal and external, may i find my cry, may all discover these benefits of being honest with self and world around. big love sarah hope we can find a way to sneak in a visit while your in Thailand!
@buttcoins, I appreciate this message a lot and I hope you know that watching your video prior to posting gave me so much more confidence to do so. I've spoken to a few people recently about the stereotypes pushed onto us about how our behaviours should reflect based on our genders - one being the idea of toxic masculinity and that men feel that being emotional, crying or just expressing themselves is a sign of weakness. It's a hard conditioning to move away from but I'm so grateful that more and more people in this space feel comfortable opening up and creating a safe space where we can explore these parts of ourselves. There was so much crying done before and after this video but it felt like such a cleanse. I was really able to shift through a lot and I am so grateful for that. I am hoping that we can make this Thailand meet up happen otherwise I do have plans to be back at the lake. It would be so amazing to see you and the family again. 🧡