I had a similar response. 😂 I do it all the time, paranoia yes and for me ego too. Then everytime this song starts to roll in my head, You're so vain, you probably think this song is about you...
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=mQZmCJUSC6g
D - I can't imagine anyone needs an explanation from you about daily updates or keeping up with schedules. You are human, one person can't do all of this and it will take time to coordinate a team and then for every one to work cohesively. This is new, it's OK to take time to iron out the creases.
You are doing great.