Intro to Dextromethorphan: My Story

I wanted to tell my story about DXM usage. Not only is this cathartic for me but it also can serve as a warning for current users and those curious about trying it. I'm not against DXM use and in fact I still use it to this day, but safety and rational use is VERY important!

The first time I had ever used DXM was when I was 16 years old and in highschool. I was a pretty sheltered kid with Christian parents, lived in a small town, and tried my best to fit in. I had very few real friends, only aquaintences and totally fit the bill of the "emo" kid so suffice to say I wasn't popular. I had also never seen drugs or even smoked a cigarette at that time.

One day, I was sitting in math class when a senior came in late, sat down in front of me, and tossed his head back to look at me. It was clear to see that he was trashed so I asked him what he took and he told me "Two bottles of robitussin." The very next day I went to Winn Dixie and bought 3 bottles of straight up fire DXM called Zicam Maximum Strength cough. I drank one the next day before I went to school and it absolutely blew my mind. All my depression melted away, and I could say anything to anyone, do anything. I absolutely fell in love with this stuff on day one. The next morning I decided I'd toss back 2 bottles of this stuff this time. Bad idea. I don't remember how I got to school at all, the first thing I remember is opening my eyes in 1st period. I was instantly caught and had to take an ambulance ride. 

I will tell you that things only got worse from this point. After I had gotten my parent's off my back, I started doing this stuff more and more often. Eventually a friend showed me a new method of dexxing: CCC's or Coriciden Cough and Cold pills. The pills were everything I had dreamed about, it became so much easier to take DXM. For anyone curious about DXM, DO NOT take triple c's. They have extra ingridients in them that make them much more dangerous! 

At this point I began using dex nearly every single day. When I would take it, I wouldn't get open eye hallucinations but I would have movies playing in my head, almost like a vision. These visions would later lead to horrible delusions. Let me tell you things went massively downhill from there. 

I am inserting a written experience from 3 or so years ago, closer to the time of these events.

Each individual trip that made a huge impact on the way things went in the near future is a story for another place so I won't cover it here or no one will read this. But all you need to know is a few short months down the road, after doing CCC (my new way of doing dex) I began to think I was "The One" like Neo from the matrix. My friend did them with me almost every time I did, much less I might add, but even so he never got any feelings like I had and called me crazy for thinking and feeling that way. Soon I became convinced that there were lizard men after me, the Reptilian humanoids from Planet Draco in the Alpha Draconis star system I later found out. A lot of people on the web believed this, I thought! I'm RIGHT!!!!   

This is the closest picture I can find to compare to what I saw

 I can still to this day recite my rediculous beliefs as they evolved. I believed that the Reptilians were here on earth for the sole purpose of creating human suffering and to keep humans trapped in the shitty little reality that they had set up for them. Reptilians were extremely powerful and they gained this power through consumption of the substance known as monoatomic gold. I came to believe that DXM was some rogue scientists attempt to recreate this gold but was later turned into a placebo cough supressant to keep people from knowing exactly what it is they had in their hands. Soon the reptiles began to appear to me, first with my eyes closed and tried to scare me, to the point where I would curl up in a corner of my friends bed room and cry. Then they came while my eyes were open. I thought they were doing all of this because I was opening my third eye and activating my reptilian brain and getting too close to having their power, becoming "THE ONE" and being able to stop and reveal their plans.    

HUMAN BODIES WERE MACHINES, CREATED BY REPTOIDS NOTHING MORE.  I WAS A MACHINE, BECOMING A GOD AS THEY WERE.  

DXM 

 D= DEUS  

X = EX  

M = MACHINA  

DEUS EX MACHINA = GODS FROM MACHINES   

It all made sense really. 

  I got sent from psych ward to more and more psych wards, each time lying, telling them what they wanted to hear just so I could get back and continue the mission. And then it happened. The Lizards tried to kill me. This was the most triple cs I had ever done, 44! I was at the friends house, tripping so hard I could barely stand it or remember what happened that night. The first memory I have is him playing Don't Make Us by DJ UNK and when I closed my eyes a purple robed Lizard appeared and said in a deep voice the lyrics of the song, "Don't make us put hands on you, pussy nigga! Don't make us send the squad on you, because you know we don't give a fuck about you!" I begged him, tears pouring to turn it off and he did but to no avail. The very second I closed my eyes, they turned to look "down" inside of my chest where I saw my heart beating. Out of the blood that was floating around inside, a green scaled hand reached for my heart and grabbed on. I started to put all of my energy into my heart, making it beat hard enough to knock his hand away, but he would just grab on again. I struggled with the hand for what seemed like 30 minutes but must have been less. I suddenly opened my eyes to see my own fist coming down on my chest. I was totally out of control and beating my self, and I was doing it hard, I had bruises all over me. My friend came running from the kitchen and jumped on top of me. I begged him, PLEASE just let me fucking die!!! But he just sat on top of me for hours until I managed to fall asleep.

I very quickly became totally psychotic and was diagnosed as such. My parents ended up shipping me off to "behavior modification school", which was more like a prison, for about 1 year and 1 month. But I had learned nothing. The psychoses was gone but I had learned nothing. I continued doing this stuff for about another year until my body began to reject what I was doing to it. I looked like shit, I had lost tons of weight and began rambling about my visions again. I ended up having some friends do an intervention on me and for me, that was the line. I quit for almost 3 years and just recently started back up again, but I only do it once every 2 weeks and never more.

Its very cathartic for me to write this. I had already written a version of this on another site many years ago and decided to try again but from a more harm reduction angle. 

I'll be straight up: DXM is a whole lot of fun. I don't know if I'd be the same person today if I hadn't done it. The visions I got provided so much introspection and so much "knowledge" about myself and the world. But the moral of the story is, using this stuff is dangerous. Using Triple C's or any other form of DXM with extra active ingridients is even more dangerous. And doing this stuff daily is EXTREMELY dangerous to your body and to your mind.

I hope that this can help someone out there. If there is any interest in this topic, one day I want to write another article about my visions that I had and see if anyone has had any similar experiences. 

Until then, Willieboosie signing off!