Even after having the courage to open the door, there is then the question of following through
Yes this part I definitely struggle with, it is like hitting a wall stepping back and looking at a master plan of your shortcomings.
It is like you say not a good feeling to have but it can be sobering, making what could be a dream state sink in and be your reality.
Hahaha, yes that sobering part and getting grounded is so important, and sometimes hits you rather unapologetically. Lol.