I think I can relate with you a lot as well. You are in the place I started and all I can tell you is that you can do this. If I would go back in time to give an advice to myself, this is what I would say to myself: "You have a great potential, hard experiences will come, but your are strong and smart enough to overcome every obstacle you can face in life. Keep your mind clear with the thoughts you want to experience and never give up to anything positive you want for yourself. You will go very far and all you have to do is believing in yourself and make things happing everyday of your life, even if they are small things". This are my words to you. You are special and can achieve any thought that crosses to your mind. Keep it up my friend :) @afrinsutana