Your story is powerful. This lights me up. It feels good to know someone else understands because as you probably know people don't understand the severity of the situation. I was a zombie and I know my family could tell and like you I kept my mouth closed about it. I am also making improvements but I still feel I have a ways to go.
I really enjoyed reading that. I hope you continue to heal and continue to overcome.
This was the book that sparked change in my situation.
https://www.amazon.com/Play-Away-Workaholics-Cure-Anxiety-ebook/dp/B00IACZECE
Thank you, I think once you experience it you are forever on the road to self improvement.
I will check the book out.