Dear kitten sorry to hear about what u are going, through, I want to tell you are not alone, we all go through depression, from time, to time, I also want to say after hardship comes ease. Please don't try or even think about taking ur live away, a faith! I don't know if u believe. In God or not, but just rember there's always light at the end of the tunnel, My last advice is regardless of what ur going through, for as long as ur alive u live to fight another day.