To be honest it really sounds like you're jealous of the success of others.
I've never been an occupying force. These types of things are not for me - I know my limitations and following rules and commands without questioning why is something I'm not able to do.
Maybe because of this experience you have some bias towards the establishment - I can't blame you for that and can understand anybody who might feel that way. I too question what are the point of some wars. I also wonder if some nations have armies that have been hijacked.
However, these things are the evolution of society. Some cultures will be lost, some cultures will rule over others. Some people will die fighting for what they think is the way it should be.
I guess I'm an ahole! But I'm a realistic ahole that knows that mankind will never be that what you are looking for.