Poem: Sometimes you feel the darkness and you can't do anything against it.

Im not okay
I rock back and forth in time to the rhythm of my heartbeat.
I listen an i listen but all i hear is the silence,
The emptiness so profound it's crippling.
See,my Childhood was so dark that i thought when i grew up,
I'd be sohappy that takes all the sadness away.

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But still from the greys of Childhood to my adult life the darkness only grew deeper.
Just when i thought life was fair and everything was finally going to be okay.
Suprise...,like a naughty magician at work or an aprentice yet to master,
The art of his powers it all disappears.
When i see others people's laughter and happiness i stop to wonder,
Why couldn't this be me?
They say time heals all wounds but there are just some scars too deep,
But still i wait..., and i wait..., and wait hoping that one daythe sadness would just seep away.

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I know you'd say am depressed or i need a good dosage of self-love,but thisis not it.
This isn't a feeling you get over or one that drug could fix,
You just learn to live with it, day after day...after day,
Hoping that one day it would get better and the darkness,
Would finally make peace with itself knowing that thing it craves is far beyond reach.

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