16/09/2020 😟

in #dairy4 years ago

Dear M,
There's something that I want to talk with you but you were busy, it's ok, I am not blaming you or anything, and I could not write it down here cos you know why. Talked with my aunty here tonight, also my cousin, how time flies, he used to be a small kid, now is 20 years old and going to college already. The college he goes to is kinda new for me, never heard of it but seems quite cool, Pearson College London. My aunty said maybe I should go back to China if things don't really get better in couples of months. She is not wrong, it's a bit too late for everything, but if I go back to China, I could start over again, and be with my mum and my sister's family. And my aunty said she saw me today from the bus, I was on my way home, she didn't ask me about the tattoos, not sure if she saw them or not. I would find out if next time I talk with grandma and if she brings it up.
I know that Chris just made an excuse to not to come today, otherwise he could tell me when I sent him the first test, in the middle of texting, he said he's on the way, but when I asked him how long would it takes him to come, then he said he's not feeling well. I had used the same excuse before, but at least I would let someone know earlier.
I am still a bit overwhelmed another friend and his gf tried to find me a job, and they did get back to me. I am still not getting used to letting other people worried about me.
U were right, today was my first time out of the house for a while now, and I didn't like it. Cos nowadays very few people wear masks when they are out, and the high street was quite busy. Even saw someone went into the Tesco Local without a mask, with the numbers increasing every day, this is so wrong.
For more than 7 hours now that I am sitting in front of the computer, and I still haven't finished the last two episodes of Bones season 1. Been texting people, been talking with people, another useless day.
Good night x sleep well
love, lyong