Sadly we live in a world where other peoples opinions dictate what we do and how we live. If this wasn't the case, I wouldn't be as discourage as I am and would probably be working.

This is completely wrong. It is fallacious thinking. Unreasonable. Listen, I've been following you for a while. I do not have to be a genius to tell you that the way you're seeing the problem is the problem. I despise self-pity and think you need to change your outlook.
First of all, you need to leave behind the pain and misfortune that was your childhood. Secondly, you need to understand that you are the only one responsible for your life. You and only you will decide what becomes of yourself.

1. Go to church and look Divine help. If you have tried everything, then you have nothing to lose by genuinely seeking help from your Creator.
2. Start working. I don't mean get a job (someone hire you). What I mean is go to the nearest construction site, pick up a hammer and tell contractor "I want to work; pay or not." If he rejects you, go on to the next one until you find one. Or look for any need in your town, find a way to resolve that need "pay or not." When you push energy into the universe, it will come back and reward you eventually.
   WORK ≠ MONEY.
   MONEY ≠ RESOURCES.

I am being as direct as possible, because you need to understand that self-pity is self destruction. I will not encourage any self-pity. In a way that means I care for you. You can reprogram yourself.

I have been homeless. What I did: I bought a fishing pole and a tackle box with what little money I had. I drove my 20 year old car to the nearest lake, and started fishing. I made a fire, caught a fish and cooked it. Slept in my car and went to look for a job in a street corner where Hispanics would wait for daily odd jobs.