I believe if I were to put a label on myself I'd also be somewhat of an absurdist. Or nihilist.
I believe you take yourself where you want to take yourself - nothing just falls out of the sky... but it sucks a** when you give it your best and it just bites you back.... Several times... And then several more times..
Though, I agree, many important lessons are learnt due to the "lows" in life... Unfortunately, though, many of the sad thoughts are easily recurring and it's easy to get stuck in their loop again... Unfortunately a tad bit easier than getting caught up in the happy loop :p

I've kept it consistent with same-day winner announcement for near all of the first 30 contests, but now I'll admit I'm struggling.. I'm trying, though, I am! :D