Damn, man, your art is really striking! Top tier of the top tier stuff.

I also create a lot, especially writing and I relate with what you talked about on supervising but not creating yourself. Creators derive a lot of pleasure and fulfilment from bringing things into life. Its just like how the universe makes procreating new life a pleasurable affair (sex) and mostly when you stay away from it libido and strong sexual urges build. The ability to create usually comes with the urge to and the pleasure from creating😊