时光如梭，回首一年，心中难免感慨万千 | 月旦评

今年还有几十个小时就要走了，时光如梭，回首一年，心中难免感慨万千。

年初的时候，我还在传销里面待着，整整四年多了，在传销里过了五个年了，心想着再这么呆下去，这辈子可能完了。于是就规划着离开传销，把因我而介入的人一个个的安排离开。大概花了二个月的时间，基本都走了，只留下我和前女友，还有二个网下，到时候一起走。
3月15号，按照传统日子，今天是传销里面发工资的日子，领了二百块钱，然后还有一份该发给前女友的工资没发，上面的老总叫我去酒店详谈才给我，然后又费了二天时间，拿了该拿的那三千块钱。

3月17号下午，我把寝室的人安排出去，叫网下把行李拿出来，然后我又去其它寝室忙完最后一点事，就和最后一起撤的人集合，上了三河的930公交车后，微信拉黑所有传销里的人，电话关机。看着车外远去的景色，想想这个是我呆了三年多的地方，从一个懵懂的小伙子变成一个中年男人了。。。。心中只有凄凉。上了火车后，发信息告诉我推荐人，彻底离开传销。我推荐人当时也懵了吧，他叫过来的人都走了。

来到武汉，一切从头开始，幸好遇到西门，给了我最初始的资源，让我可以在新的地方存活下来。这份情，心底会一直珍惜。最落魄的时候，有人伸手帮助你，我想是上天终于眷顾我了。

几年没回老家了，稍微稳定一下，就回了趟家，故乡变化得太快，但是味道还是那个味道。这几年欠的孝，一步步去偿还。爷爷奶奶，弟弟弟妹，可爱的侄子，父母由于在外地，没见到。然后又去了趟东北，看望十多年不见的外公外婆。谁知道，这是和外公的最后相处了。最后在医院送外公最后一程的时候，突然间明白了，除了生死，世上无大事。

料理完外公的后事，返回武汉，和女友也分手了，意料之中。五年的感情，很多人也许会要死要活的，我很淡定，因为我知道，门当户对很重要，心不在一个频道，再多的付出再多的爱，只会让自己卑贱的活着。何必呢？

找工作，每天上班，下班，几年没干活了，一切都生疏，所以我必须要比别人多花时间，别人休息的时候，我还在工作，也许有人在睡觉的时候我也在工作，或许你还在被窝睡懒觉的时候，我已经工作了几个小时了。因为我知道，我再不努力，父母真不行了。

这几个月来，失过眠，流过泪，淌过血，汗就不用说了。有时候很想找个没人的地方痛哭一场，甚至在看头条里的一些文章的时候，泪水止不住的落，但是绝不会哭出声。这个世界，不相信眼泪。人世本苦，但我足够相信。相信自己！
祝自己的新的2018一切都好！祝天下所有的父母都身体健康！祝steem里的各位大神新年快乐！

This year there are dozens of hours to go, time flies, looking back a year, mind inevitably filled with a thousand regrets.

At the beginning of the year, I was still in the pyramid selling room for four years. I spent five years in pyramid selling, and I think I will probably end up in this life if I stay like this again. So we plan to leave the pyramid market and leave the people who are involved in me. It took about two months, basically, left me and my ex girlfriend, and there were two nets to go together.

In March 15th, according to the traditional day, today is MLM inside the pay day, received two hundred dollars, and then send a copy of the ex girlfriend's wages not made above, the boss told me to go into the hotel only to me, and then spent two days time, took the three thousand dollars to the holding.

The afternoon of March 17th, I arranged the bedroom people out, called under the net to take out the luggage, and then I went to other dormitory busy the last thing, and finally withdrew the set, the Sanhe 930 bus after WeChat pulled all the people in the Black Pyramid, the phone shut off. Looking at the scenery out of the car, think of this place where I stayed for more than three years, from an ignorant young man to a middle-aged man. There is only a dreariness in the heart. After the train, the message told me the referee, completely out of pyramid marketing. I recommend that people are ignorant of it, he called the people have gone.

Come to Wuhan, all from the beginning, fortunately meet Simon, give me the most initial resources, so that I can survive in the new place. This love, the bottom of the heart will always cherish. When the most out of mind, someone reaches out to help you, I think it is God at last care for me.

A few years did not return home, a little stable, and returned to the home, the hometown has changed too fast, but the taste is still the taste. These years of filial piety, step by step to repay. Grandparents, younger brothers and sisters, lovely nephews, parents, because they are in the field, did not see. Then he went to the northeast to visit her grandmother, who was not seen for more than 10 years. Who knows, this is the last time to get along with the grandfather. At the end of the last trip to the hospital, it suddenly became clear that there was no big event in the world except for life and death.

After finishing the affairs of the grandfather, he returned to Wuhan and broke up with his girlfriend. The feelings of five years, a lot of people may be desperate, I was very calm, because I know that the match is very important, the heart is not in a channel, pay more and more love, life will only make you humble. Why?

Looking for a job, go to work every day, work, not work for several years, everything is unfamiliar, so I have to spend more time than others, others the rest of the time, I was still working, maybe someone in bed when I was at work, perhaps you are still sleeping in bed when I have been working for a few hours the. Because I know, I don't work hard again, my parents are really bad.

Over the past few months, lost sleep, tears, blood, sweat, do not have to say. Sometimes I want to find a place where no one cry, even when some articles in the head, tears fall, but will never cry. This world, do not believe in tears. People then bitter, but I believe enough. Believe oneself！

I wish you all the 2018 new things. I wish all the parents in the world are healthy! Happy new year to all of you in steem!

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