I've had many Christmases where I haven't seen my family, but that was because of living in another state, and alternating between my family and my partner's. We would see my family sometimes a month earlier or later, but would always see her family closer since they were in the state we lived in.

The year after we separated, I wasn't able to travel home to my family for Christmas, and ended up spending the day alone. It was horrible, and not a situation I'll ever be repeating again if I can help it.

I hope you are able to be with your family again soon, though with technology these days you can be close to that anyway, just without the physical presence