That is very sad to hear @amirul. I hope that it changes for you somewhere. Reading has a huge impact on a person. It is like travelling the world without leaving your house. It opens up your mind in ways nothing else can.

My history professor used to say:

The one thing we learn from history is that we do not learn from history.

If we do not read we do not learn. If we do not learn we are doomed to make the same mistakes people made before us.

I hope you will become a passionate reader in due course!