I totally get the tears of fear about walking through the casino after giving up a gambling addiction. I may not agree with much else here but beating an addiction is a super human thing to do. Nothing can destroy a life and the lives of loves ones like gambling can. Absolute respect to you for that. Despite not agreeing with much else in the post. If thats what got you out of the blackness and absolute wretchedness of addiction then its worth repeating.
If you could find your way to engage with @gails-word-syrup, she is fighting her daughters demons, I'd be truly grateful. Maybe you could inspire or help her. Shes a lovely lady. Thank you :-)