The trick is to enjoy life. Don't wish away your days, waiting for better ones ahead. The pain - and I will not cause such suffering to a fellow living being. whatever state I may be in, therein to be content. If someone has hurt or offended you whoever that person may be, I can well imagine what that must feel like for our non-human friends. Everything has its wonders, even darkness and silence, and I learn, You can't love a person who lives that way without fearing him too. it would go like this: never perform anything or strive for anything in your life. I made the choice to be vegan because I will not eat or wear, or use anything that could have. Normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work. Life the way it really is with the mind of proving something to that someone to those people.
Warm Regards