It was an immense shock when I heard about my Indonesian friends, Ishimine's story, loosing her breast, diagnosed with breast cancer at such young age. I will not write a lot about her path since then but she is one of the bravest women I know!
Strong and resilient, yet so gentle, soft and beautiful!
All photos are original with Cindy's permission to post in the name of Breast Cancer Awareness!
2016 - October 29th found a lump, Nov 4th biopsy and Nov 17th Mastectomy. Grade 2A invasive lobular carcinoma. Double positive. Last chemo 4/4/17
Stunning Artwork by her friends on Instagram"arnismuhammad "photo by "nomad.dex"
Distance yourself to see things clearly. When everything feels like an uphill struggle....just think of the view from the top - Cindy 
I love and respect you so much for spreading a positive message for all cancer victims, Cindy!
Follow her Instagram and see for yourself. My words would not be enough to express as well as she does.
Her message is deep, honest and loud!
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
Thank you for this Wabi-sabi gift. "The wisdom and beauty of imperfection."
Wabi-sabi nurtures all that is authentic by acknowledging three simple realities: nothing lasts, nothing is finished, and nothing is perfect.
4th Chemo - Pre medications and I'm just having fun with apps
Bring Wabi Sabi in your life as well as Cindy did
It doesn’t require money, training nor any special skills.
"When a friend can hear my thoughts, he gave caption to the photo he took" Photo by Dex
"Rethinking, what sexiness is, What attractiveness is...."
It takes a mind quiet enough to appreciate muted beauty, courage not to fear bareness, willingness to accept things as they are without ornamentation. It depends on the ability to slow down, to shift the balance from doing to being, to appreciating rather than perfecting.- Source
Wabi-sabi reminds us that we are all transient beings on this planet—that our bodies, as well as the material world around us, are in the process of returning to dust. Nature’s cycles of growth, decay, and erosion are embodied in frayed edges, rust, liver spots. Through wabi-sabi, we learn to embrace both the glory and the melancholy found in these marks of passing time.
"4 weeks from my 1st chemo and 5 days after my 2nd chemo - hair basically began dropping off and decided to let go. I've done goodbye with my boob so this is far easier knowing it will grow back anyways. Bye hair, see you next year. FYI, thanks to my mom for taking good care of my head shape since born" - Cindy
Cindy and her son Nakula : "All I wish is to see my sons children one day"
Wabi-Sabi: The Art Of Imperfection
This Japanese tradition offers an inspiring new way to look at your home and your whole life.
Wabi-sabi reminds us that we are all transient beings on this planet—that our bodies, as well as the material world around us, are in the process of returning to dust. Nature’s cycles of growth, decay, and erosion are embodied in frayed edges, rust, liver spots. Through wabi-sabi, we learn to embrace both the glory and the melancholy found in these marks of passing time.- Source
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I have to admit that I am crying even though I am so proud of Cindy. Her only wish : "I want to see my sons children ".
She will!!!! I pray for her and maybe you decide the same for all women effected by this horrific disease.
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you did it well...@mammasitta
I have no words. Pray is good...
From all the reading and videos I've been watching, I'm convinced that people should not do chemotherapy. It destroys your immune system and it is a weak immune system that allowed cancer to spread in the first place. The post has a graphic that asks God to cure all cancer. In reality, God already gave us the cure; it is the corrupt medical systems that are killing us. Our bodies already have the ability to kill cancer cells, but it is the junk we put into our bodies that is preventing that system from working. Chemotherapy has a 97 % chance of ultimately killing you... the cancer will return, and stronger than before! DO NOT do chemotherapy and go somewhere where alternative therapies are allowed. Not every therapy works for all cancers, so do your research. This message needs to get out so people can stop dying of cancer. Do not trust any doctor that tells you to do chemotherapy or radiation therapy; those are both very damaging to your health. There ARE alternatives.
It's easy to say when you are healthy.
What would I do?
I totally agree with you but I guess it's a very difficult decision to take when you are confronted. This would be a topic for 100000 more articles.
Our medical system is a big mess!
All I can do is trying to prevent
I wrote here what I believe in
https://steemit.com/healing/@mammasitta/sacred-plants-and-natures-vaccine-why-do-i-believe-in-healing-with-kambo-frog-medicine
That is very true.
I watched too many friends die because of the treatment rather than the cancer itself. If you are told you are going to die anyway, or that the chances are 97%, then there really is not that much risk in trying something different.
I've been told I may have an aneurysm in my brain. I did the research and I don't like either option. I chose to do nothing except to try and keep my blood pressure normal and stay healthy. If I die, at least it will be quick!
I am so sorry to hear about this but admire your attitude. I agree with you once again but can't and don't want to imagine what I would decide
If (and hopefully you don't need to make that choice) the day comes, you will likely find the right choice.
I watched a Ted Talk where a first aid responder talked about how he used to lie to people he knew would not live. One day he decided to tell the truth and he was shocked by the response. All the people he told that they were going to die did NOT freak out. Instead they accepted death and were at peace with it. He stopped telling lies and allowed those about to die to say the things that were important to them; generally forgiveness and something they are proud of and feel would leave their mark.
Not sure about that. My mother did both, chemo and then later no chemo..she passed away. My father didn't do chemo..he passed away anyway..
Simply doing NOTHING is also not going to cure the cancer. You stated that your mother and father didn't do chemo. and both died. What you did not state is whether or not they tried alternative therapies? The cancer will NOT go away on its own. It was created because of some reason and that reason needs to be reversed or removed.
Lately (after having written all the above) a tumor was found in my body, so I now get to actually live by my words. I am trying 4 different angles to shrink that tumor. Hopefully I will be successful. Time will tell.
Sorry to hear about that. Hope one of the angles work or a combination.
They tried many things and spent a lot of money on experimental and alternatives..
Thanks for the clarification.
In order not to re-invent the wheel, would you be able to say which alternatives definitely do not work? This would help me to sort out what I should be doing versus what is a waste of time.
My plan WAS to use the ketogenic diet and cannabis oil, but it seems that cannabis oil is not the silver bullet it is claimed to be. I'm still trying the ketogenic diet along with exercise and bouncing to move the lymphatic fluids around in the body, reduce stress, eat apricot seeds for the cyanide and Reiki.
This story really hits home with me. My mother is a breast cancer survivor. She's over 80 years old and had her surgery over 30 years ago. Actually the doctors had to go back in a second time. I've gained so much strength and inspiration over the years watching her.
❤️ To you and your awesome Mama!!!
Thank you very much!
My grandmother was diagnosed with cancer back in 2006. I have watched her hair falling off, nails getting malformed and immense pain she has gone through is above words. Despite all these, She is the most beautiful lady on the earth to me.
But you know what? She is a fighter and It's been 11 years she is winning the game and enjoying her life with her grandchildren. I am so proud of her. :)
I am sending you and your Mom many more wonderful years together. I guess it brings families even closer and appreciate life even more. She is blessed to be one of the survivors
Yes, she is. Nice photo though. Did you capture it?
Yes ! I had so many every day in my garden, falling of those wonderful Bali trees
I truly believe that all kind of sickness come to our lives to teach us something.. to love ourselves, to appreciate what we have and to stop and look around for a second.. It is always hard to accept that it is exactly you who are sick.. but I will never forget how I read that our best gifts are in the ugliest wrappings..
Beautiful post, really inspiring! ♥ I am sure Cindy will have a lot of precious memories to live for..
Sending lots of faith and light :)
Touching comment and words!
Thank you for sending the light we all deserve. 🌸
I am grateful every day what an exciting life I lived so far and that I am personally not faced with disease.
Cindy is a true warrior, sharing her story the way she does. It will help many women!
Dear @mammasitta
I think nowadays a lot of people are fighting with this illness... But they missunderstand that it is a blessing telling them they have done something wrong till now and they should find a better way to live!
Cancer awareness is really important, it should be reminded to all women that they should check themselves and should find time to care for their health!
This is the most beautiful post. Namaste
Scars on our body is just the line. And even if they are ugly....they will heal. But, it's better than the scars in our souls. They is unhealed everlasting wounds. May God give her strength and endurance, patience and will. Let Cindy never break a rod in her soul...Amen!
Beautiful feedback and wishes for a warrior woman . Thank you so much! She is reading all your messages and grateful for your compassion.
Damn! Great article. I must admit that while I knew something like breast cancer exists I never pondered the implications
Cancer sucks. But we can always find beauty behind the scars. Thanks for your post.
U are really a strong woman. Some women would have committed suicide
Hello mammasitta, thanks for sharing this story!
There is a natural way out of cancer, might helps in future:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=3zYWtzq4XBk
Thanks much for the video. I saw so many and my friends effected by this disease tried all kind of ways but some just loose their struggle and some fight back and win. What would I do ? I don't know
Fighting isn't the right way, i think. The key is to understand your own nature and that there is a point in time where it begins. A biological conflict shock starts a specific program. You can find by analysing your symptoms this starting point. R.G. HAMER find and studie this and creat a table where you can find all common diseases.
If you interested, here is a specific explanation for breast cancer:
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Q5-CIgI0VYo
Powerful!
shes so brave..
i hope you'll be better soon..
Yep, you have a choice to surrender or fight. Keep fighting!
My mother had cancer and she kicked his ass.
I feel you Cindy. Not much to say about it. I just hope for better.
Luv and good vibes for Your MOM!!!!
Steemit is a great place to help those in need. Stay strong Cindy
beautiful! thank you
A thank you without words ☺️
Absolutely breathtaking and inspirational. Thank you so much for sharing this. I agree with all of her quotes, especially the one about taking the view from above. It does change everything when you change your perception. Going above the situation to ascend to higher living. Awesome!
I wish her all the best!
Thank You !
Cindy is reading .....
so so much emotional and brave woman she is my own friend is fighting with cancer and she is in hospital no body can understand more than from me about her sorrows hats off to her bravery
Tell her stay brave
thanks for flower
What better way to say thank you for your compassion ☺️
pleasure is all mine dear your love and respect is all my asset
mammasita - what an intense article. It is quite moving. Though I have had interaction with people either suspected or diagnosed of cancer, I have not had any interaction with an actually affected person. It must take great courage to implement wabi-sabi. To accept an imperfection and even turn it into a strength takes strength of character. Thank you for bringing this enlightening blog to us. Upvoted and following you.
I request you to visit my blogs. They are nothing in intensity compared to yours. I do muse a bit but most of my blogs are in lighter vein. Perhaps they will help you come out of a dark mood sometime. Thanks
My apology for my short reply but I feel very emotional after writing this article. can't find words , so I put flowers for all of us
I understand your state of mind. Thank you for your reply and the flowers.
Flowers = Gratitude and Thank You without words ☺️
Thanks mammasitta. I am trying to get more grounded with my realities these days. I, therefore, did relate to your post and state of mind
I am nowhere close to your level but I attempted to pen down my musing and my state of entangled mind today. I would be honored if you take a look and provide your comments/views. Thanks
I am more than happy to read !
Best to join my steemit.chat channel #mammasittas and post your links there. In this way I don't overlook them.
Sure. Will join. Thanks for letting me know
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Thank you so much
I feel you. Well said. I can't relate directly though, but I broke my humerus couple of years back. It didn't really stick out of my flesh so there wasn't any mark left. However, if you feel my left arm(the side that broke) , you could feel a slight difference in bone structure. I call it an internal and eternal scar. Scars on the inside here. Heh. So, I guess I relate that way. Never going to play football on the edge of higher ground for the rest of my life. Cheers!
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awwww
I couldn't find words but thank you for sharing your story. I have 2 big scares on my body from accidents but deeper ones inside.
Those scares remind me every day that I "survived" and I am grateful for my life
I didn't reach the life level though but that's good. We all could use some kind of reminder in life. To always be grateful.
This was my intention with this article ❤️
Clearly came through :)
Am so sorry
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Thank YOUUUUU!!!!!
very impressive nice post!
Wow!amazing
love the post...what a perfect title!...great
❤️
Hi @mammasitta, I really appreciate your Kindness. I resteemed this post. I remember your prayers and support for my baby cat Maha. She is no more. So I plan to donate some SBD as promised. If you can directly send the money to your friend then I will be more than happy to donate 25 SBD to you. Please respond in the post below. Is Ishimine in steemit?? Thanks God bless you n Ishimine.
https://steemit.com/life/@tamsguitar/my-baby-cat-maha-is-no-more-but-she-left-behind-78-sbd-for-me-to-donate-for-a-good-cause-or-let-me-know-if-you-need-help
Cindy is not on steemit.
Your are so kind!!!!!!
This is my snoop and I know how you feel about Maha
Here is Loki's story
https://steemit.com/steemitphotochallenge/@mammasitta/the-enigmatic-loki-my-god-like-cat-3-entries-for-steemitphotochallenge
We all have some kindness in us, some show others don't. I really liked this post and I'm glad that you are taking care of these animals. These animals become human beings to the people who love them and their loss is as painful as losing a family member.
I couldn't read the entire post just read it in bits and pieces about your friend Cindy. How is she now and if needed I can send you the smallest possible contribution from my side. I know it's small but still I would love to.
I am hesitant to say that my pets are more important than my friends but in some way it's true. They just never disappoint me.
You are too kind but please keep your Hard earned SD. If whales can't help minnows should not. You are too kind and the gesture speaks a thousand words
Your a lot braver then me, that's for sure! May God bless you!
Thank you. God bless you too!
Such a inspirational story..thanks
@mammasitta: I was truly waiting for a story from you. This story inspire and makes me sad at the same time. She is a brave soul. My best wishes are with her.
Nice post @mammasitta
Wonderful publication and beautiful picture
soon she will be well
Upvoted and resteemed.
Thank You !!!!
i think you're all beautiful
YES !!!
You too!!!
A shocking but needed post.
I get you @mammaphoenix!
OMG what a beautiful name :)
We can rise ....
https://steemit.com/rebirth/@mammasitta/how-can-you-rise-if-you-have-not-burned-the-theme-of-rebirth
Lovely post @mammasitta, thank you!
"the phoenix could live over 1,400 years before rebirth" - actually, I feel I might be living my 1,400th year now. TIME TO BE REBORN! :)
What an amazing creature of power and grace!
Let's go for the rebirth !
Agreed, and I'm ready!
Brave and commendable of you to share the story and more so the photographs. Sorry my teeny upvote so low as not used steem apart from last month but hope it helps.
Thank you so so so much for your compassion, words of kindness
https://steemit.com/kindness/@mammasitta/kindness-a-lost-virtue#@ebryans/re-mammasitta-re-ebryans-re-mammasitta-kindness-a-lost-virtue-20170208t235059793z
Sad story, resteemed and upvoted, remain strong, all the best for your friend!
Cancer is a terrible decease. Something you would not wish for your worst enemy. I sincerely hope the medical industry will be able to cure all sort of cancers. They are getting a bit better, but still a long way to go.
Great to see Tattoos have a real purpose here!
Cindy will conquer this beast!
Good!
very impressive @mammasitta :-)
Cindy has a powerful message and I am glad I was allowed to share it. Thank you !
You are welcome @mamasitta :-) Best regards and nice to meet with you here
Wow. Your friend is strength itself. I can't be more proud of her as woman who has crossed paths with breast cancer.
I lost my mum some 18 years ago to breast cancer (as shared here https://steemit.com/life/@tezmel/what-i-am-made-of) and it still hurt while writing about it... You did great :) Bless your heart!
Followed. Upvoted. Resteemed with great pride! All the best to Cindy and her growing family. Let her know she has my prayers.
It's so beautiful to read ( Cindy also reads, even though not on steemit) all stories and feedback. I am sorry to hear about your Mom passing away due to that beast called cancer. Thank you for your prayers for a brave young , awesome woman's fight. An example for many other women!
Thank you. It is well :)
Powerful article, thoughts to your friend. Wishing her well
She lives in Bali and is an awesome warrior
great post to a very very urgent topic. many of us don't want to see the "dirty face of cancer"
She agreed that I could write about her story and that beast of cancer. She is awesome and so positive!
Cancer took many of my friends to death that's why I hate it and become sad for the rest of the day when I see somebody has cancer
Same here ...I lost a few dear ones but Cindy will make it !
I hope every cancer patient will recover
I just made that same wish ! I lost too many friends and also family to that vicious disease
so brave for sharing <3
thank you
Yes , She is and her Instagram says so much more about her adventure and shares to fight.
Only thing I can say is never loose hope. The one who has given life to us will take care of it properly. We have to just obey his orders.
It's the way how we deal with when effected. I don't know what I would do but obeying is a difficult one. I would also fight like a lioness !
Thank you for sharing this with us!
Thank you for your time to pass by here my dear @firepower
She is really a brave and strong woman. She did not lose faith in the most difficult period of her life. And she's beautiful now. Beauty is in second place. The main thing is that she is alive and now with her family!
Nothing but respect for her !!!!!!
Just a thank you gift for you