I'm a nobody here, but my impression of you has been that you always do what you feel is right, regardless of the consequences.
You've got my respect for that.
I understand your concern about what you'll become if you stay, you can't wallow around in the mud and expect to come out squeaky clean. Speaking from experience, I only recently went back to work after 6 years. Steemit isn't the priority for me it was just a few weeks ago, but it's still a good outlet.
My free advice is to lurk around the edges and comment and post on what you want to while you earn a living doing something else.
Maybe it can become more enjoyable when the pressure is off to earn money with it?
Perhaps when communities arrive I will do that. But for the time being, not even having a browse is that enjoyable, because it takes too long to find something I'm genuinely interested in, and I will typically come across two or three things that piss me off momentarily before stumbling across that diamond I was seeking.
I've noticed that lately too. Even some of the authors I really enjoy interacting with seem to be posting less. Maybe HF20? ;-)