Life can be quite hard. Being a father will ask you to make decisions you never wanted to do. An honest man will do what it takes for his tribe to survive. Based on what I read so far in this post, I can see great attributes that you will do just that.
I took the life of activism by telling the truth and fighting "big brother" and teaching others how to win the hustle in Court, so average joes like you and I don't have to worry about paying money we don't have to thieves called politicians.
Anyways, that's a whole different story and too much to explain. long story short, I lost everything I loved and I am paying for it. I am doing my best to get back on track and be able to see my kids again after being extradited to a foreign country.
I wish you the best of luck my friend with whatever may come your way, but life doesn't rely on wishes and prayers for you to cross the bridges it puts in your way. You got to get there to the other side on your own. With or without help, you have to be able to do it alone.
Sad to hear your story mate. And you are true about the wishes and prayers. Everything you want in your life you have to achieve on your own, as no one will give you nothing in this life. This i truly believe and hope i will be able to teach it my son. Hope you will get where ever you are planing to get.
Do not be sad for me. I take full responsibility and I regret nothing. I wouldn't change an atom from its place to change my past. It happened. I know from experience that it will lead to something greater.
We just have to remind ourselves that from time to time, and sometimes others as well.