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RE: My lifelong struggle with depression

in #blog7 years ago

I read somewhere once that depression is caused from believing one is helpless, or hopeless ...feeling you have no control over your life. I also see that in our civilization, there can be a lot to cause someone to feel this way -- for example, having to labor in drudgery the majority of one's healthy waking life at a job one does not care about except for the pay and benefits, in order to accomplish what has been laid out for one to do by the social construct -- have a job like this, a house like that, clothes like this, children like that, a life like this, a car like that... ....it's like being herded through a cattle chute at a factory farm -- with no time or energy left for oneself -- to think your way out of it. I am autistic, and for me it was overwhelming. The stress wrecked my digestive system, which took my health down. I barely made it out alive. Now I am living off-grid, far far away from civilization, out in nature ....wearing what I want, eating food that's actually healthy, breathing clean air ....and working toward what my psychologist friend calls "healing into authenticity"-- becoming/being myself and working on creating something to give back -- my contribution. I'm not rich, as most who live off-grid are, but I learned that when you set your intent to do something, life opens the way ....like magic ------- something which has been stripped from our sterilized, linear brained, "machine mind" controlled world. For me, I had to get that back -- the magic and mystery -- in order to be happy.

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I have definitely found that the more I try to live up to the status quo the worse my depression is. I guess in the end the more you try to fit in the more you smother out your true self... I really like the idea of living out off the grid and I'm genuinely curious as to how that is going for you. We should definitely talk some time!

Yes, well said.

It's the perfect life for me. I would never go back to a city, willingly. I plan to blog about being off-grid -- if you want to follow me.