I know that feel men, you're not alone dude ! Even if my heart and my head are full of dreams, life is scary. If you don't earn enough money, society make you feel you don't deserve to live... Bullshit ! At least, with a community like Steem and with the blockchain technology we can feel hope ! Even if I feel very sad sometime, I'm still believing that life matter, life is beautiful ! Keep it up, I think that the next years are gonna be wonderful ! I see hope in a lot of alternatives, I trully think we have (as humanity) all the cards in your hands for transforming the society for the best ! Now is the right time ! You are on a good path !