I truly believe this trauma was a good life changer for me. Now i understand that my kid is everything i need in this life. If i wouldn't have this opportunity, i would think like most men do. That the child rising for dad starts from age of 2-3 , when he starts to speak, and now i see it is not true. As he is communicating almost from the beginning.. I respect you for doing this hard work, by rising your child, as it is not the easiest work in the world, but the reward is well worth it:)