Why am I writing on steemit?
A long time ago, I was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder. I did not know what to do with it and my whole life was turned upside down.
I got one panic attack after the other and I really thought this can not be true what is this I really thought my life was over now that I had this.
I could not work anymore had no sense anymore the only thing I was that was afraid that it would happen again if I went somewhere. I wanted to look for help but this did not help me any further unfortunately I had to go further alone to get deep out of that well on my own strength after climbing up again.
I went looking for my fears wherever I was afraid or had a panic attack.
I had to do this to get out of that deep well so that I could get to know my body why that panic? why afraid? all those questions went through my mind why do I have this?
I do it all on my own strength to be able to live normally again. I do not have a lot of good friends there. I seek my peace with my horses.
but how do I deal with those thoughts?
It is exactly there that I have found something I have started meditating even though it is difficult to put my mind to it, but I must get back the power and energy that I used to have.
I am of course still not long, there is still a long way to get better.
That's why I started to write something differently and just write nicely, and of course I also try to earn something so that I can help other people who have the same as me but to steer them on the right path.
living with fear is not nice but finding the right power to get out is the hardest part.
hopefully I will find people here who might find my story interesting