I appreciate the share of experience and knowledge.
I just feel gutted and sort of empty. The worst part is, is that I know that I don't just get over this one.
We broke up 2 years prior and then got back together.. In those 2 years apart no amount of booze, drugs or women could take my mind off that girl.
Knew when we got together it would be for keeps or I'd end up like I am now.. My entire being aches.
I know plenty of people on here enjoy my work.. But I can't even get into the zone it seems anymore.
Time is the only thing that can help. Be strong and let time do its work. For some people drugs and booze actually slow down the process and increase the time it takes to heal. That may or may not be the case for you. Either way, its tough to speed up the process. You have a wound that needs to heal. You will heal. All you can do is be determined to fight and never give up until it does. I don't mean to get too personal, but maybe you will click with a counselor. There is no saying you can't get a little help in the healing process. There are some out there that are really good at what they do. I got a lot of help back in the day.
Councellors have never worked for me.. Took some psychology in school so when they psycho-analyze me I knowingly botch the thing. Never have been able to deal with shrinks and their psycho-babble-bullshit.