Still fighting, still losing

Hi, guys!

I hoped with all my might that I would feel better this week and that I could begin to rebuild the ruins that my life had become. But apparently my depression has other plans, and it has only intensified, leaving me in a terrible state, which is not clear how to deal with. I can still only focus on cleaning, it's my magic wand. This is the only thing that helps me distract myself, and plus it’s a cool bonus in the form of a super clean apartment, where every corner is covered.

Recently my girls (two days ago) decided that they needed a window sill more than I did. I had to remove all the flowers from it so that it would be more convenient for them to look out the window. I think they are cats at heart, otherwise why would they jump higher and from there monitor what is happening in the apartment or on the street.

I had to put flowers all over the apartment, but I couldn’t handle it. Only my favorite alocasia and croton remained on the window. I understand that there is a risk that the rest of the flowers will simply die, but the happiness of my girls is much more important, and they really like to look out the window.

Today I want to go outside at least for a while, I need to buy groceries and other small things. I need glue to repair my roller blinds on the window, one of them is broken, and it’s time to fix it, since I removed the flowers from the window. Now the girls and I will have more privacy in the evenings.

And now the main thing is not to forget exactly where I placed the flowers, because now is summer and watering everything regularly is especially important.

Have a great day everyone!