Hi, guys!
Today, I'm determined to complete a volume of work quickly and efficiently, allowing me to rest peacefully for the next three or four days, because I truly, critically need a few days off. My body is so stuck in fight-or-flight mode that it's simply unbearable. I need to rest, because if I don't, this whole thing has a good chance of ending badly. Mea already had to get a sedative injection to make me even remotely human.
So, I'll try to get as much work done today as possible for the next four days, so I can drop everything for a while and just rest peacefully, not worrying about urgently needing to film videos, but just posting them and responding to comments. I have a doctor's appointment in an hour, and after that, I can work until this evening. After that, I have a game with friends, which I really don't want to do, but if not today, it's not clear when we'll be able to meet again. So, I'll have to do everything today.
Of course, such a stressful schedule has consequences, and to minimize them now, I'll have to force myself to take days off. So now I need to wind down and rest, because otherwise I'm afraid I'll just break down. So I need to make sure I have work material for the next few days. I think I can easily make sure I have it today; it won't be a big problem, and then I can calmly spend four days in bed reading books, or even better, sleeping and watching movies, because reading has become work for me too.
So that's my plan now: to slow down and give myself a break.
Have a great day, everyone!
