Hi, guys!
I have half an hour left before the appointment with the doctor and I am so nervous that I think I will throw up my own liver. In half an hour it will become clear whether I will be admitted to the hospital or not, and I will have to somehow cope with my condition at home.
Right now both options seem terrible to me, both are bad. I will feel bad in the hospital and I will feel bad at home, so there is really no point in me being nervous. Either way it will be bad, I just don’t know where it will be worse. In my heart I have already resigned myself to the fact that I will have to go to the hospital and my husband will have to take the dogs to my mother again, and this is terrible, my mother lives 50 kilometers from Kyiv, and it is quite difficult to take them, they do not like to ride.
I console myself with the thought that in the hospital I will be able to work on my book, and also read a lot of new books. But still, the hospital is not home and I will miss home terribly there. I know this because it happens every time. During the day, this separation is still bearable, but in the evening it becomes completely unbearable and all I want is to urgently return home and sleep in my bed.
But nevertheless, I urgently need professional help, so going to the hospital is still the best option for me than staying at home. Therefore, I still hope that my doctor will cope with the task and will be able to hospitalize me normally. If not, I don’t know what I will do, because I will have to be treated at home somehow, and how to do this is completely unclear.
But I am not losing hope. Now there are only twenty minutes left before our meeting and I am trying my best not to worry that nothing will work out. I just hope that everything will work out and everything will turn out as planned. That today I will pack my things, and tomorrow I will be in the hospital, lying calmly and getting treatment. I hope everything will turn out exactly like that.
Have a great day everyone!
I hope it all works out well for you.