Hi, guys!
So far, I still can't get out of bed, no matter how hard I try. I just have trouble getting up, I have trouble thinking, everything is hard, and it's not ending. Today, I need to film at least a few videos, at least two, so the process doesn't stall, and also go to the post office, pick up packages, and send the prizes from the raffle to the winners.
And I don't feel like doing anything at all; it feels like it's hard to even breathe. This weekend, there's a book club I was supposed to attend, but I don't know if I'll even be able to get out of bed. I have an appointment at a tattoo studio the next day to get my eyebrows done, and I'll definitely have to go there, that's out of the question. But the good thing is that I won't have to do anything; I can just lie there and not move.
So today will be another story of overcoming myself. Film at least two videos. And after that, I'll try to pull myself together again, try to make it to the end of the day. I have a talk with my doctor in a couple of hours, and I hope he'll say something uplifting.
My husband says I shouldn't blame myself. That I should treat myself like a sick person now, and that everything is fine, I just need to get through this period. He's right about everything, but naturally, my brain protests and whispers terrible things to me. This is normal for depression. I'm trying to listen to my husband and not listen to myself, but it's very difficult.
So I understand that I just need to get through this awful period with minimal losses, but it's incredibly difficult. But I will try.
Have a great day, everyone!
