I am now 37 weeks 2 days pregnant.
My due date is suppose to be on the 13^th March 2018.

On my appointment with the nurse yesterday, she told me that I am in full term already and the baby could come out anytime soon.
It could be two weeks earlier from my due or two weeks late but I know it could not be two weeks late because I am not allowed to give birth pass my due. I am diagnose with GDM and also anemia during my pregnancy, that is why I can't give birth pass my due date. This worry me more for we are living far from the hospital and no phone line at all. (Another reason why I am not active steeming at night and weekend. We have to go out at least 2 km or climb the hill at the back of our house just to get a phone line.)

My heart start to worry. My mind start listing any possible things that could happen.

• What if the baby came out before my holiday?
  Everything is ready in the car but I am travelling by train to work. If my husband were to drive me all the way to work,we will be out of budget because of the petrol price nowadays.

• What if I started to feel pain in the train?

• How could I call my husband for we don't have phone line at home?

• Will the baby be safe this time for I have experience miscarriage once?

• Will the baby be healthy or will she be affected by my health condition?

• Will I give birth safely?

• Can we raise the baby better than we have been through in our life?

And a lot more question get through my mind as the day pass by..
Waiting for the delivery time felt like forever. .

Searching information on how to cope with this kind of stress on google doesn't help me a lot 😣

What help me?

• Supportive husband.
  He let me rest well throughout my pregnancy. He will be doing all the housework for me. Preparing my every needs. He is very patient with my attitude. I cannot ask for more..

• Supportive friends.
  They help me to shop for the baby needs. I don't need to do anything. They gave presents and it is a lot.. baby cloths, baby bottle and a lot more that I don't even know the use and need of it until they explain to me.
  I've told the story of my friends in my previous post.

• Prayer help a lot. It gave me peaceful and calm mind.

• Talking to the baby also help. Some people said that if we tell the baby to wait until she is strong enough the baby would listen. I am not sure whether this is true or not but it does help me calm my mind and it makes me happy everytime the baby give respond to anything that I said to her.

I'm not going to talk about my family for I have been use to handle all my problems on my own. I don't want to burden my family anymore. They deserve to hear only good things from me for I don't like to make them worry about me. They have enough problem on their own already.

Thank God I have always been blessed with good peoples around me.
These people will always be in my heart and prayer especially my husband.
My husband might don't have a job but he have everything else that I really need.(And I am very thankful to God for that)