It's wonderful, that you are happy with these believes. I also didn't want to say, that I believe the opposite, just that for me all these believes have nothing to do with happiness/truth/god for me. They are not even spiritual. I have always wondered, why believing that the Queen is a Reptiloide or anything like this, is here to help us? Feel free to believe whatever you want - by all means - if it makes you happy, it's perfect. It's just that "finding out the truth" has another meaning for me and in the end has nothing to do with believes at all.