It's hard to let go of something when every area of my life is being affected and all of the publicly paid agencies are burying my file.

I only recently started talking about it here. I did not feel comfortable about it and only do it in a handful of places I feel comfortable.

I will not be writing about it really, I speak in general terms if it comes up or I can relate in someone's post on something.

It is hard when the agencies are by their nonfeasance and or malfeasance -- are causing me to to be drained physically, financially, spiritually and emotionally. There is nothing left for me to invest, I cannot pay bills or hardly find food money. After years of supporting and helping others.

I have realized I have little to no support, really nobody cares, and I am being marginalized by the system I paid into for years and one I have questioned since I woke up and done so publicly.

Discussing it a bit quietly here and there IS how I am trying to let go and deal. Most people cannot relate and I pray nothing similar happens to you -- or them. Ever.