Here is my Story ... of How I almost thought about Taking my own life.

My name is John, I would like to share with you guys my interesting story...

It all begins with my first bitcoin... I had a friend called Sam who got into crypto last October, he was telling me how he was earning attractive passive income from a platform called Bitconnect. He was going on and on about it consistently and he is a friend that i would trust since he is kind of my only friend...

Because my dad was a retired gambling addict and money was really tight so me and my mother are working to pay for his huge debt each month, that got me thought about taking the risk since if its possible like Sam said, all the debt will be paid by mid 2018... my family have around 180K USD Gambling debt because of my dad ...

I was working full time Night shift mall security back then , I only gets paid around $1000 USD a month, Because Night shift gets paid more so I chose the less healthy option... I got very Fat because of the un-regular sleeping and eating habits as you can see me in the photo above (pictures were taken today 12/2/2018).

All I ever want in my life is to help my mother be debt free because she has been paying debt for my dad since i was born, she is a good mother and she love our family... even after all the bad things that my dad did...

She is getting old and I feel very useless since i am not earning much money because of my educational background... I can only work for jobs that doesn't require a college degree. So to me , this bitconnect thing that Sam is taking about really seems like a good chance for me ...

Sam was being very enthusiastic about getting me into bitconnect and I wasn't caution about it at the start, I just know that I want to change and I am willing to take some risks in order to make my dreams come true ... I didn't have much savings so decided to lend it from the banks... (BAD BAD MOVE)

I did everything online and it was so easy lending money nowadays ... just need to provide a few documents and the money arrived my account in a week... IT WAS a 20K debt ... the date was around 20th Nov and bitcoin prices were like $8xxx something. Sam was telling me it doesn't matter since Bitconnect platform doesn't care about what price you bought your bitcoin at blah blah blah... As soon as I bought my bitcoins from the local bitcoin exchange Sam was quickly guiding me how to send my bitcoins to the platform and start a loan ......

##This is my Bitconnect Account today...

I had a total of $22000 lend to the platform (20K from bank + my life savings 2k)... Sam didn't tell me that he would have affiliate commissions from getting me into bitconnect... If he did, I would of been more cautious...

Eventually I was so blinded from the daily gains from the platform so I ended up quit my job on the 31st of December... Mostly because I want to be more Healthy and have more time to learn more about crypto currency and the blockchain tech.

Once I have the time to start seriously learn more and more about everything... I realized that I everyone were saying Bitcconect is a ponzi scheme... which I have no idea what it is ... ( I would say I am young and uneducated so never actually heard of what a ponzi scheme is)

The more I read while unemployed and living off daily payouts... I noticed that the platform could eventually collapse and I would of been smarter if I have invested in Altcoins or Bitcoin itself.

I was starting to get really worried, because I can't afford to lose the money that I don't have... I have to pay debts for my dad each month and also the debt from the bank that I borrowed...

But the Platform did die halfway through January...

At first... I was very very depressed, I even tried to give up my life... eating junk, can't really sleep... you guys have no idea how bad I feel...

Watching my mum come home from work every night... tired, old... waiting for times to go by , pay off debts...

I know I can't give up, I need to be strong... She is my motivation to stay alive... face my mistakes, be responsible and don't walk away.

I decided to start off with my health...

I can not make anything happen without a good health, so i decide to make a steemit account to track my "COME BACK" documentary/ Diary... tracking my weight loss and financial recovery in 2018.

What I learned from the pass few months,

1. "There is no Short cut to wealth" and
2. "always do enough research before you put your hard earned money into things."
3. "Don't listen to anyone's advice fully " (Even the people you trust)
4. "DO NOT GIVE UP and Don't be afraid of FAILURES "
5. "Life is about being dumb and making mistakes and LEARN from those"
6. "DO NOT put money into risk that you can not afford to lose"( DO Not Borrow Money for an investment)
7. Money is just a number, your health and your love ones are the most important things in Life.

I am blessed that after paying off January's debt i still have around 0.4 btc left in my portfolio even after all the crash...
Hope I can make a way to recover my financial loss in the crypto world... I will work harder and learn more about everything. Maybe thats whats God wants me to learn... I believe Everything that happens in life has a purpose.

Maybe that's how I can become a better me... focus on better things..

Thank you so much for taking the time reading my story.
I believe the world is beautiful and there is always hope.
My goal is to go back to 155lb this year (217lb Right now) and Make enough money to pay off my parents debt which is around 202K USD.

With 0.4 Bitcoin , I think I can make it happen. Because Life is a box of Chocolate...
You guys are alway welcome to follow me to see my whole journey.

Share this story with your friends... resteem so people can learn from this.

God bless you all , Have a great , healthy Life and spend more time with your family .

From
John ( A fat , Asian guy on Steemit who got REKT in BITCONNECCCCCCT)

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