I have always struggled as an artist. Because in my own mind I would only allow myself to paint freely. I could not fall into any particular style of painting because I felt that I needed a lot of freedom to flourish. In our own lives why do we feel the need to live these vary rigid and narrow lives? Why can we not decided to be completely and one hundred percent free? 
I enjoy fine art. I could watch you paint all day.
Thank you @robertchr ! A future plan is to maybe do live videos of entire painting sessions!