Interesting evolution of your creative life... thanks for sharing!
I ended up not considering myself "artistic" at all... so I took some solace in being a writer, and made peace with writing non-fiction as my creative outlet. It didn't make me particularly happy... nor was it much of a commercial success as I mostly worked as a technical writer for other companies. One day I Realized it was not MY creativity being expressed in those words-to-order jobs. So I stopped.
Today I only write for the enjoyment of it... doing things like Steemit and a couple of other blogs.
Interestingly enough, I started painting geometric patterns and mandalas when I was in my mid-40s... finally getting over my impression that I "wasn't creative." I have been much happier since then.