Hello @Shihabieee. I am sorry to hear about all the troubles you have had. I truly am. But there is always hope for a better future. I myself have had tough times as well but I always persevere through them with the knowledge of knowing that somewhere in the world, someone or many others are praying for me and want to see me succeed in life. I happen to be one of those people. I pray twice a day evey day for the world. I hope one day soon that you will succeed in everything you wish too. But it will always need a little help from others and determination from within yourself. Your mother seems to have been your healing factor and that is a good place to start. Remember these moments and use them to excel your spirit into a better place. I wish you the best always and I am always sending prayers on the winds of life to you. Have a blessed day.