Yeah, we have grass-fed ghee, my problem is that I am more often compelled to reach for this raw honey I love -- which takes us back to the sugar issue. It's good just to have outlets to talk through our conditioning to take things into our brains and bodies that cause self-harm and seldom do any good.
I've started developing a piece on longevity and plant-based foods and that's become a rabbit hole because of the conflicting data. Anyway, best of luck. I can relate the generational chemical dependency issues and am glad to see you dealing with them at a young age. I think that will be of great benefit to you both soon and in the long-run.