I feel your pain. When I was growing up in a small town in middle America my parents always dealt with drugs which was why my dad ultimatly went to prison. I have been in meth labs, smuggled drugs from state to state. Just all kinds of bad shit. The diffrence is I never did much of anything as far as actually using, droped acid and did shrooms a couple times and poped a lot of pills but that was the extent for the most part. I was always in it for pure profit which is a rarity in the drug world. Lots of people accused me of being a cop or a snitch over the years because i didn't do drugs. Had guns pressed to my head, all the normal shit I guess. Both of my parents died before I was 25 so in a kind of fucked up way i guess maybe i wanted them to pull the trigger to end the bad shit i had boiling inside me. It never happened though. I guess what i am trying to say is I get it when you said all the people pleading for you to stop didn't matter. I was the same way. i may still be that way, but I am trying to change and make an effort to make the world a better place for my kids. I am glad you are better now and are helping others. It takes a lot of time and soul searching to patch up a ship with that many holes but it is possible. You understand the only way to fix a broken person is if they want to be fixed. No amount of tears and begging will make a broken person change their ways if they don't want to.
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Thank you for not only supporting this but for sharing this with me @doomsdaychassis! I am sorry to hear about some of the things you have had to deal with, but remember, it builds character and defines who we are once we get where we are going. My mother was a bad influence on my life as well, so that is something I directly relate to. If you ever need insight, or just someone to reach out to, I am here and I am on Discord as LuckyDev#1969. Anything I can do, I got ya.
You are absolutely right about the last sentiments. You can only help a person who wants to help themselves. It took a great deal of trial and error as well as many heartaches to understand this, but it is a fact. Though it is a tough pill to swallow at times, anyone dealing with addiction directly or indirectly should know this.
I hope to talk more with you! Thank you again for your support and for everything shared!
On the good side it seems we both have our lives at least pointed in close to the right direction so we got that going for us. lol. I will be around here and there so i will tallk to you later. thanks for sharing, it is an expierence that most will never know. Like i alway say. What doesn't kill you , gives you a dark sense of humor and bad copeing mechanisms. lol . I might hit you up on discord, I am just getting started on there and getting use to its ins and outs.
Absolutely my friend! LOL I like that statement, I'll be sure to use that one. If you get on discord, definitely get in touch. By the way check out @greeterguild if you have a chance.
I will check it out for sure. Thanks. We are about ready to take the car to the track so i probably wont be back on the internet till tomorrow .
edit: it says the page doesn't exist
@greetersguild and here is our discord link
https://discord.gg/AkzNSKx