• kintsukuroi (35)in #semicolon • 5 years ago

  Label me ;

  I recently got diagnosed with autism. I join the ranks of several other people who were diagnosed with borderline personality disorder incorrectly. Whilst I have never been keen…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #friends4life • 6 years ago

  goodbye for now but not forever

  I have had @ratticus with me for just over a week and they left this morning. It has been challenging because in that time I've had to face some truths. Filling out paperwork on…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #chronicillness • 6 years ago

  I’m still standing... just

  I’m seriously been battered about lately physically and mentally and recovery time takes longer and longer. I’m a bit perturbed by a somewhat compliment my psychologist made to…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  avoidance

  I have for a while now avoided looking at steemit. After all if I don't load it and don't write in here (as promised completely honest) then maybe I don't have the issues I'm…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  Broken

  I had an extremely long day. The kind where I actually started breaking apart. Where you are so desperate for help you are actually willing to make the phone calls but you don’t…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #emotions • 6 years ago

  Hate

  Right now I hate you. Except I don’t hate you. I keep being open and honest and you make it so easy to do that. So I hate you because I am not feeling the strongest. Because I am…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  Over...

  Over tired and over being tired. Trying to self care by reading. Trying...

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  Brain defect

  I would like to report a brain defect. Despite daily patching (medication) there seems to be an error in the tearduct.exe. I’ve run several shutdown commands and it still doesn’t…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #job • 6 years ago

  Job

  Applied for my almost perfectly described dream job. Damn I wants it so much. My precious.

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  Hurt

  I want to hurt myself. I can’t though. Doing so would hurt those whom deeply care about me and I can’t inflict that kind of pain on them. But I so desperately want to scream…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  Porridge

  I’ve been feeling sensitive lately and have spent way to much time hiding in my bed. It’s a safe place. Often I curl up on my husbands side. It smells of him. He is safe. But…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  I know the feeling of alone

  I don’t get a silent night or day in my head. The simple fact is that I can’t see, hear or do anything without my brain linking it to a time, a place or a person. So when I do…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  Drugged and addled

  Yesterday morning despite waking up feeling fine things went downhill fast. Driving my daughter to school I felt pain in my lower back. I ended up pulling in to the Dr’s instead…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  Damnit...

  Good news can sometimes lead to tears. However they are generally tears of joy. Tonight I received a promotion through St John Ambulance Australia where I teach youth members to…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  Hug

  I need a hug. The kind of bug that engulfs you, that has pressure in it. Enough pressure to help calm my psychotic brain from being such a jackass. But hubby isn’t home. I have…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #anxiety • 6 years ago

  Flirting

  I haven’t posted for a while. Between work and playing single mum whilst hubby was away doing a multiple day St John Ambulance duty O haven’t really opened steemit. Also being…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #depression • 6 years ago

  risks (and quotes)

  “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.” ― Anais Nin This is one of my favourite quotes and seems so aptly…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #mentalhealth • 6 years ago

  observations

  I realised the other day that how well I tend to look after myself is proportioned to how well I feel loved and cared for by others.

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #mentalhealth • 6 years ago

  A little more me

  At the start of the year I had a friendship take a nasty hit and despite assurances and promises that this friend of mine wouldn't cut me off, did just that. Of course it's far…

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• kintsukuroi (35)in #labels • 6 years ago

  Labels

  *** WARNING: This post contains themes that may be distressing. *** I watched this video today and it left me seriously thinking about labels and having any diagnosis. I…

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